"How was....I saved?" Thaddues repeated, pondering it as his hand reached for his throat but he paused mid reach.
Pulling his hand away, he cleared his throat before taking a deep breather.
"Honestly, I can't really count myself saved. Sure, the paramedics were called in time to stop all the bleeding and get me to the hospital to 'fix' me up so nothing was wrong physically." Thaddues responded. "Although....I will say I finally got given the chance I desired so much to walk away from the shadows of something else. To finally be seen as my own person instead of the....Thing everyone percieved me to be just because of blood and name."
Ah yes, Grindle...a very unassuming last name you would think? Unfortunately so though, a certain...family member of his made that name into the papers with all the shit they pulled. All the rude and crude things they did, being nothing but an ass. Taking a deep breathe again, he stirred his mind to focus once more.
"As for your first question, I have attempted to..take my own life before. Essentially it was what your friend was doing but in a less painful way till it went awray...correct?" Thaddues said, looking to Loke, only for the horned man to look down somewhat ashamed. "You don't have to feel that way, many people feel like they hit that point. Where no one will care, where it seems like the only thing that would make people happy and you can do right, is to end it all. I had a time in life, where I believed that rather strongly, even more so due to the fact that all people saw who knew me, saw that person."
Again, his hand reached for his throat. Hovering there before gently grasping it. Massaging the long scars across his throat.
"And yet, I found myself having ended up here eventually. My knowledge was useful and with time, Fury started to see me rather than the Thing that he and a few people still remembered." Thaddus added.